OPERATION TAKE-DOWN!!

No one should have to go through what my children and I have been through this year.  Unfortunately our story is not original because families are torn apart at the seams every day at the hands of CPS.  There are those families that do require intervention to help children who would otherwise be trapped in an abusive situation.  However, there are often news stories that report kids being beaten to death, drowned, raped, murdered, or having to live in households where their most basic needs are neglected.  Other stories act as an outlet for parents to share their horror stories of how CPS tore their families apart without any cause or evidence.  How is it that CPS does not seek out real abuse, but rather focuses their efforts on anyone that has a finger pointed at them?  The finger pointing becomes a “witch hunt” and an agency that was originally put into place to protect children becomes a force so powerful they can take down a loving family without proof of any wrong doing.  CPS at the very least needs to be held accountable for their actions by either having an organization put into place that requires them to prove an allegation is true before ripping children from the arms of their parents.  There are so many horror stories from families that have had to deal with CPS that they are often overlooked and deemed far-fetched or only half-truths.  My story may seem this way too, but I can say beyond the shadow of a doubt, it is true!  Trying to explain this to anyone that has never suffered at the hands of CPS is exhausting.  Nothing I can say would come close to painting the picture needed for people to understand unless they have had a similar experience.  I am going to try to paint that picture by writing a book about my experience and hopefully light the match that starts the fire to bring CPS down for good.  The only way to fix this problem is to bring CPS down completely and start over.

YEAH, THAT'S THE ACTION OF INNOCENCE

Ok, so I tried doing things the CPS way, then tried doing things the legal way.  When I got tired of waiting and decided to take matters into my own hands and contacted a couple of the news stations and the Dallas News this morning, who do I get a call from this afternoon???? 


CPS.... CALLING TO SAY THEY ARE CLOSING MY CASE!!!! 

Hmmmm.... is it just me, or is that way too much of a coincidence??  That looks like a sign of guilt to me!!  Good news!  The caseworker that handled my case is being transferred!!  Now, let's see if we can do something about the investigator who started all this evil because I called her out on the bold faced lie that she told my sister and my eight year old's sperm donor.  The same "sperm donor" who was no where to be found before all of this and had to be tracked down!

The catch:

The caseworker didn't call my attorney, she called me directly so my attorney had no idea what was going on until I called to tell them.  On top of that, the caseworker told me that if my eight year old's sperm donor, I mean "dad" (and I use that term very loosely because I even kissed his ass and kept my mouth shut when he was insulting me in hopes he would come around on the rare times we actually knew his number or the general area he was living), and I quote, "calls AGAIN to tell them I am not doing what I am supposed to that my kids will be permanently removed from my home".

Now people... I can not make this up!!  This IS ACTUALLY A TRUE STORY, MY STORY!! 

So, I called my attorney's office to ask if they had talked to CPS and the paralegal stated "No, we have not talked to them, they have not called us back.  We sent them everything and we're still waiting."

Ahhhh..... you have GOT TO LOVE IT WHEN CPS THINKS YOU ARE SO DUMB AND NAIVE THAT YOU ARE NOT GOING TO ASK QUESTIONS!!  I am sure they thought I would be so excited to be having my case closed and to get my babies back, that I would just blindly sign what she is bringing for me to sign today.  I am sure my IQ is higher than theirs, good luck with that plan!!  I am SO VERY EXCITED TO BE ABLE TO PUT MY ARMS AROUND MY BOYS AGAIN!!!!!  I have waited this long though, waiting a couple of days for my attorney to look over what CPS wants me to sign today so they will not be able to bend me over and screw me again is not going to kill me!!

Just a few more days and I can breathe while being able to hold them!!!  It is so intense right now because I am not sure how my meeting with CPS this afternoon is going to play out. 

PLEASE LET THIS BE REAL AND NOT A DREAM!!!!!!

Unlimited Power of Congress

Great video!!  Supports exactly what I have said!  She lost her job in Congress for her report on CPS.  http://www.saferchildren.net/protective/links.html

Info For Anyone With Media Connections

Here is the gist of what I have just submitted to a couple of the local news stations and Dallas News.

 

CPS took my kids without a court order, without cause, and I HAVE DOCUMENTED PROOF, as well as digital voice recordings of our meetings proving that they have no cause of action for as going as far as they did.  I have a diagnosis of ADHD and Generalized Anxiety Disorder. After my mom passed away in December of 2008, I left my job as a Network Administrator and lost my insurance, causing me to see psychiatric care and medications through MHMR. MHMR does not treat their adult patients with stimulant medication for ADHD so mine went untreated for almost three years.  I did some research and brought what I found to my doctor’s attention, which lead her to prescribe me Strattera.  Strattera has some very ugly side effects, including suicidal thoughts and worsening of anxiety and depression.  You can find that information here http://www.webmd.com/drugs/drug-64629-Strattera+Oral.aspx?drugid=64629&drugname=Strattera+Oral.  I experienced suicidal ideations with no plan or intent.

 

I knew something was wrong and checked myself into the hospital’s psych unit for help. I was unable to stay due to lack of help from uninvolved “co-parents”, so I had to leave then made arrangements to go back in, making sure my boys would be cared for and safe, so I would be able to continue therapy and return home confident and able to better care for them.  Prior to my first hospital stay, the school counselor called CPS stating that my depression was out of control.  When CPS called, I was already on my way to the hospital.  I called CPS back prior to my second visit to the hospital to let them know what was going on and what plans I arranged for my children.  While I was in the hospital, CPS called the person caring for them to tell him their dads were going to be picking them up and that if we couldn’t find my youngest son’s dad, he would be going to foster care.  His dad, having only seen our son twice in five years, was finally tracked down and picked my youngest up.  CPS did not have a court order, did not bother to meet with me or my children, and have failed to return them to me.  They finally, only recently, met with the kids for the first time.  I have jumped through every hoop and plowed through every obstacle they set before me, but they keep changing the game.  Interesting fact, even though nothing was mentioned in any of the meetings, CPS said that I failed to seek psychiatric care and medication for my kids, even though you can hear loud and clear on the recording of the family meeting their psychologist stating the time, energy, disappointment, and unbelievable stress that him and I both went through trying to find them that care.  That had been long since resolved prior to the meeting, although I did everything I was able to get them that care and my efforts are documented. 

 

My eight year old, the one who had only seen his dad twice in five years, has only been allowed to see me three times since April and his dad allows him to answer the phone to talk to me maybe four times a month on average.  CPS has placed each of my children in opposite corners of the Universe, at least that is what is seems.  My children are being estranged from one another as if the stress of this on them hasn't been bad enough!  My twelve year old, who seemed unable to tolerate my eight year old before April, now sleeps and cuddles with my eight year old's stuffed bunny rabbit and misses him deeply.  My eight year old, when I actually get to talk to him, asks when he's coming home.  How do you answer that??  There is no answer!  Even my seventeen year old randomly asks when his brothers are coming home.... which holds great significance because he wanted nothing to do with his brothers before and he's seventeen.  My oldest and middle sons dads, who have co-parented with me harmoniously, have stated to CPS that I am a good mom and I take care of my babies.  They have my back and can actually vogue for what type of parent I am, but CPS is going to consider the words of the ABSENT parent and not the INVOLVED parents??  Yeah.... makes total sense!!  Thanks to the idiot that decided to allow an agency like this to exist without also setting up an entity to hold them accountable!!

 

There are so many more details to share, but will wait for someone to contact me so I can produce documentation before sharing since it is hard to believe and very shocking how far CPS has jumped over the line of anything remotely rational.  I have several important pieces of documentation and the digital voice recordings of a few phone calls, the family meeting, the FBSS assessment, and one of my EIGHT YEAR OLD SCREAMING BLOODY MURDER BECAUSE HE DID NOT WANT TO GO BACK TO HIS DAD’S HOUSE.  My doctors have written several statements for CPS stating that I am symptom free, I have managed to take five classes for school this semester, despite CPS trying to make me crazy, and have excelled in all classes.  Anyone without a diagnosis probably would not have managed as well as I have through the fear, frustration, lack of contact allowed with her babies, and not knowing what CPS will pull next.

Not Knowing Is The Worst!

After the meeting I was so excited and thought that this was all coming to an end very soon.  I suppose for some, soon would mean within the next month or so.  I have been waiting almost 8 months to be reunited with my boys so I was hoping this would all be over this week.  Now my attorney is out of the country until the 26th, which is great for her.... she works hard, she deserves a break.  For me though, I can't think of going anywhere.... all I can think of are having Chase and Connor back with me and God.... is it too much to ask that they are able to be here on Thanksgiving while the people from CPS and my attorney's office are enjoying their families????  We have waited long enough!! 

Day 1, 71 Pg Views, and Guess What??

Seems I am making waves already with this!!  Two people have come forward with their own CPS stories which all sound about as horrifying as mine.  Ok, CPS has its purpose!!  It does good and saves lives, but they also abuse their powers and overlook many of the people they should be paying attention to.  Do I need to remind anyone of the two recent cases where the mothers killed their poor defenseless children??  Great use of your time CPS.... let those poor children get swept out of your radar and hone in on the people who are trying, without much if any help, to raise their kids with love!!  Tough times happen and so do medical mistakes.  No one is a perfect parent, but most of us try to at least instill morals and make sure our kids know we love them everyday.  Hell, I tell my 17 year old so much through the day that I love him he gets mad at me and tells me I tell him too much!!  My kids know they are loves and know I took care of them when they were here until they were ripped from me in April of this year!!  Yes, let's estrange families and let the real bad guys go unpunished!!  Good looking out for the kiddos CPS!!  Good lookin' out!!

Pausing Until I Get My Babies Back

My attorney and the cps caseworker and supervisor met yesterday 11-12-12 to discuss my case.  Apparently cps has another open case with my attorney and is ready to be done with all of this.  Now, the requirement for me to have my boys home is the most recent therapy notes from my doctor.  How many times does cps actually need this you might ask???  Well, as many times as they can get away with asking for the notes!!  Great question, unfortunately.... true answer!!  They have requested these notes repeatedly and have received them from my doctor in a very timely manner each time.  And each time the notes have stated that I am symptom free and have a very positive attitude.  So here we go again!!  Once they receive the notes now, will they once again change the game or will I really have my sons back by Thanksgiving??  I already missed Halloween.  This is the first year that I have not been able to take my beautiful boys trick-or-treating.  Sure, you may say to yourself, "big deal", it's just Halloween.  Is it really "just Halloween"?  No!!  It is the fact that I am missing out on their lives while they are gone.... there goes another moment that we have missed out on with each other. 

Anyway, this is all I am going to write until they are safely home.  It has been my experience that with CPS if you have a backbone and voice your opinions, they can make life very difficult.  There is so much more to come.  I have recordings, letters, and other goodies that you may find very interesting!  Hopefully it what I have to say will help others who have a run-in with cps.  I didn't know my rights and if I had, most of this could have been avoided.   If you know how to fight the "bullies" back, it is hard for them to beat you. 

So This Is What They Call Help?!!

A little background on me... I have a diagnosis of ADHD and Generalized Anxiety Disorder.  After my mom passed away in December of 2008, I left my job as a Network Administrator and lost my health insurance.  I sought assistance through MHMR, yes, good 'ole government care!!  They do not prescribe their adult patients stimulant medications for ADHD, so for almost three years I went untreated for my ADHD.  I finally read about a non-stimulant medication called Straterra and talked my psychiatrist at MHMR to prescribe it to me in March of 2012.  One of the rare side effects of Straterra is suicidal ideations.  I began having suicidal ideations in April and realized that I needed help.  I made arrangements for my three minor children to stay in our apartment with my significant other of one year whom they trusted and liked very much.  I checked myself into the psych unit at Methodist Richardson hospital to seek treatment. Once off of the Straterra and on something that would actually work for me, I felt myself again.  In my eyes, this was a good thing!  I was proactive right??  I was doing the right thing wasn't I??

The school guidance counselor was "concerned" about my depression because she heard that I was crying in a meeting with my youngest son's teacher and principal on the day that the ultimate decision was made to move him to another school that was closer to where we live.  I was sad... it was very sad because we had a relationship with these people and I did not want to move him from all the friends and school staff that he had known for the past five years since his older brother had been there in the 2nd grade.  Of course I was sad!!

So, while I was in the hospital, CPS called my significant other and requested that he gather my childrens' things because their fathers were picking them up to stay with them "while I was in the hospital".  They had no court order to make such demands and still do not have a court order to this day!!  We had to track down my 8 year old's dad because he has not been in the picture.  When we did finally track him down, he was not happy about being used as a "safety net" until I got better.  He did realize that had he not accepted the responsibility of fatherhood, at least for the breif time he had commited to, our son would have gone into foster care.  A safety net.... a safety net???? Really????? 

CPS never met with my children to talk to them at all.  While I was still in the hospital, I was accused of being mentally unstable by CPS, which I might add never bothered to meet with me either.  The case notes from the hospital psychiatrist didn't matter either, which stated that I was more than willing to work with CPS and did have a bad reaction to the medication I was on and an above average IQ. 

So now I'm "mentally unstable", according to CPS who got their credentials and the letters M.D. behind their name from somewhere.... where I have yet to figure out!!  If I wasn't mentally unstable before, they were sure trying to make me that way.  Because while in the hospital, I was told by them that I was going to be without my children for at least 6 months to a year!!!  Really??  Because I checked myself into the hospital and was doing the right thing??  Should I have sat on the couch, continued to eat Bon Bons, while watching TV and also started to ignore my children???  Oh wait, maybe I should have also waited until I was suicidal enough to actually kill myself!!  Would that have been better??

I still took care of my kids, but I was on the couch a lot.  My kids didn't go unloved or without attention because they would sit on the couch with me and cuddle!!  Yeah, that is such horrible parenting!!!  What the hell was I thinking???  I didn't want to be on the couch because my kids were used to me running around outside with them playing baseball, nerf wars, hide-and-go-seek, and whatever else they wanted to do.  I hated the fact that all I had energy for was the couch, which is why I needed to be proactive and check myself in.  So for CPS to "remove" my children from my apartment without even meeting them or me.... for them to tell me I wouldn't have them for 6 months to a year..... for them to make me feel like a bad mom..... are they really here to help or just judge based on a "feeling" based on biased opinion??  Is that what they call help??  I don't need their kind of help!!  No thanks!!  And through all of this, they sure did try to make me crazy.... the most sane of people would have gone a little crazy through all of this!!  I have managed to stay in school.... I'm taking five classes and am maintaining a B average in all five classes!!  What more proof do they need that I am mentally stable??  They have had doctors write several letters about me, all of which said I am symptom free and have a good positive attitude.  Yet, they change the game and change the hoop of which I am supposed to jump through????  So, they call it help and change the rules..... and they are supposedly here to help all involved??? 

One of the sad things about this.... there is no one to govern what CPS can or can't do!!  That's right people, they don't answer to anyone but the courts!!!!!  And the people that they aim for are the people that can't afford to take them to court!!!!  Another really sad fact that I would like to point out.... is that they actually get paid more money from our government when there are more kids in foster care!!  Now, my kids aren't in foster care and they are "voluntarily" at their dads' houses right now, but they were trying very hard to make sure that my 8 year old ended up in foster care and not with family before we were finally able to track his sperm donor down.  The same sperm donor that had only seen our son two times in five years!!  The same person that was pissed he was being used as a "safety net" until I started "feeling better" and our son got to come home!!    Remember when I said CPS doesn't have a court order to keep my kids from me or out of the house??  It was also strongly "recommended" that I not take my court papers stating that I have custody to pick up my children.  If I did, "I would never see them again" and they would end up in foster care and neither parent would see them again!! 

There is much more to our story and I will share that with you as I piece back together the time line.  This saga has been going on since mid-April of this year 2012.  It has been a very painful one, one that will hopefully be at an end soon.  But I am not going to forget and I am going to make sure that as many people know the truth as possible so that at the very least, an agency is put in place that CPS will have to report to and prove things up to instead of just doing whatever the hell they want and tearing families apart.  Don't get me wrong, I am sure that they have done some good and I wouldn't want to do their jobs.  There is such a thing as actually helping or just abusing your powers because there is no one there to stop you.